Above and Beyond
Updated: Sep 26, 2019
It is our joy to share with everyone that we have officially matched with an expectant mother. And there’s MORE much MORE! We’re having twins! I’ll let that sink in a little bit because we’re still processing as well but oh the excitement in the air!
So much has transpired in the past few weeks so this update is way overdue! In much of this journey, I have struggled to believe the goodness of God as we have prayed the same prayer for nearly four years. Oh how I am repenting of my unbelief! I don’t deserve this good news, I feel like Zachariah and his doubt that Elizabeth would become pregnant with John the Baptist. Why do we doubt the goodness and mercy of God?! Ephesians 3:20-21a never felt so real.
“Now unto Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we can ask or think, according to the power that works within in us, unto Him be the glory...”
In my most recent, personal journal I prayed “Please give me back my faith and purge my human, fallen mind from its fears and doubts. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. Help me with my unbelief.” God heard that prayer and strengthened my faith as of late during which He came through in ways Kara and I couldn’t have dreamed. He didn’t have to but He wanted to!
We recently traveled and met with the mom and couldn’t be more encouraged as to the connection and relationship we are making with her. She is so thoughtful and intentional, truly a sweet, young woman wanting what’s best for us and her children. I can already see the connections God is weaving in all of this. He is truly a loving and protective Father for His children.
The amazing thing about all of this is we had our fears that our child would grow up without a sibling buddy or not knowing where he or she came from. We had so many fears and so many possible scenarios of what this could look like and we are sitting back and watching God provide in abundance! All we really did was pray and follow God’s will and He did the rest. We couldn’t have hoped for something better and we even know the gender of one of the twins (the short story about that is the mom, of her own prerogative, wanted to get an ultrasound for us to send us pictures)! So, in the end, God heard our cry for relationship and our children’s relationship with each other, and now we have twins coming early 2020!
A friend of mine, who also has adopted, really put it in perspective for me when I was doubting God’s goodness. It is in His nature and close to His heart to care for the widows and the orphans and we felt called to do the same. So then, why would God go against His nature and lead us this far to NOT care for children we are wanting to adopt. That gave me hope to persevere in my prayer. And then God did it.
Lord, I repent of my unbelief and I am, beyond words, grateful of your love for us, the twins, and the expectant mother who is under such great care. Only you can orchestrate such divine appointments and connections. Amen!